It’s time I let that person go. I’ll be back for sure but from now until God says I’m ready, I’ve gotta let go, and let God. It sucks though, how awesome and amazing that person is.. which makes it so much harder for me… this really really sucks. I’m distracted, disheartened, and discouraged often when I’m with her or even thinking about her. It’s unhealthy, I feel as though I’m not good enough and she deserves better, which she does. I strived to be a man of God, for myself and her as well, but ironically, during the process, at a certain point, I abandoned God’s guidance. Ironic, isn’t it? It’s funny how much I’m in denial, I’ve prayed and prayed and God’s given me one answer every time, “it’s not the right time for both you and her so wait, live, and grow in Me until the time is right.” I’ve tried to push that answer away as much as possible, knowing the consequences of obeying. But as much as it sucks to let go, I’ve got to and I hope and pray its gonna be for the best. Life moves on from here. God I give you everything.